it’s like
sitting back and reading a thought-provoking book
without interruption,
just a white chocolate mocha
to occasionally provide me with that extra
sweet physical stimuli
while my mind is already realizing some new reminder
of things i already knew
like,
chatting with friends
and feeling a sense of love
and acceptance
for who you actually are
and being comfortable in that space
while laughing about something silly that one of you
has done or said
like,
being with him for a day
and taking in the pleasure
with a lightness of being, a sense of home
like all is right with the world and
its ok to be my best self
while holding his hand or
moving closer to him to take it all in
and allow myself to feel the connection
like,
watching my son move about
with wonder
yet comfortable in who he is
because he hasn’t yet learned that
he is not the center of the universe
while he looks at me
as if i hold all of the answers,
and all of the comfort and all of the love in
all of the world
like,
thinking of my daughter
with pride
knowing that she is a survivor of
tremendous things
and being fearful
of what is to come while
knowing
that i held her hand and that she thinks
i am her pillar of strength
while i am waiting for her
to understand her own strength
exhilarating and frightening
wonderful and inspiring
there is so much joy,
and fear but
infinite possibilities abound
in those little things
that i enjoy
each of those moments bringing
new potential
for life to unfold.
sometimes i just have to stop
and breathe.
i know i get ahead of myself.
right now i am taking it in.
realizing how
magnificent
this
one breath
one memory
one thought
one feeling
right now
it permeates
my entire being
that is enjoyable enough
