i’ve been searching for a poem..

i’m thinking black feminism of the 60’s/70’s type poems/poems of self discovery/poems with attitude/poems like don’t bring that shit my way

i’m talking indignant poems/poems like i don’t have to take this shit/poems like.did you walk by me and not recognize the god in me

right when i needed a particular poem for my sanity/i couldn’t find one/not in my boxes of books/not on my bookshelves/not in the pile of books next to and under my bed

here i am searching and scrambling for just the right poem/just the right poem to slap somebody over the head with/just the right poem to yell in someone’s face/just the right poem to shake my head at somebody that should be a shamed of themselves

but i still haven’t found it..it’s driving me crazy/here i am searching and searching for just the right poem..maybe an alice or a nikki..or a gwendolyn..or a sonia

i need a poem with fire/right now/to speak my obscure thoughts/

these thoughts/below the surface/these feelings that need release/this passion ignited/this indignation that somebody would look me right in my face/and not see me/look me right in my face with no regard

i need a how dare you type of poem/but i can’t find one/at one point i would write it myself/but somehow/i can’t find the words